Awakening to Awareness – Life after Samyama

What began as confusion and discomfort turned into a transformative spiritual journey through yoga, Sadhguru's teachings, and motherhood. This honest reflection traces a woman’s awakening, deepening sadhana, and how it shaped her life, relationships, and

When I had my spiritual awakening back in 2015, I didn’t realize it was guiding me back to my own originality. I was nervous and clueless of what was happening to me. The only thing I felt like doing was sitting quietly in a room with my eyes closed. My body ached with discomfort, and I couldn’t express my feelings to my parents. I was scared they might think I had a mental health issue.

 

Later, I began reading the Hanuman Chalisa, which gave me hope that I was on the right path. I was searching for change in my life but didn’t know how to feed my hungry soul. That’s when I found a program called Inner Engineering being offered in Kathmandu. I didn’t know then whether it was a calling or a deep longing to go further.

 

After being initiated into the Shambhavi Mahamudra Kriya, I started falling in love with the being within me. I began to rejoice in silence, became aware of my breath, and found comfort even in discomfort. Life became more hopeful. Choosing the path of spirituality meant facing more hurdles and discomfort, but I kept my life energies at their fullest. I began to live beyond the mind.

 

One after another, I found myself drawn to the spiritual practices offered by Sadhguru. I listened to my inner calling. I noticed I had become more disciplined about what I consumed, not just food but thoughts and emotions. I believe that for anything big to happen in life, we must prepare ourselves to receive it fully. I decided that no matter what path I chose, I would walk it with yoga. With this intensity, I continued gently, yet with the discipline of a true yogini.

 

When I first landed at Sadhguru’s ashram in 2018, it felt like entering another world. I loved the food served there; it was unlike anything I’d ever eaten. The serenity and tranquility of the ashram’s atmosphere is unforgettable. I enjoyed volunteering at the Isha Yoga Centre, and after 12 days there, I returned home with more focus, enthusiasm, and joy.

 

But my longing didn’t stop. Each sadhana I added to my daily routine made life feel more meaningful. I found happiness in simplicity. I became calmer, more patient, and more joyful - the kind of inner richness every human desire.

 

Then came the real twist - Covid-19 hit the world in 2020. While many were losing themselves and their loved ones, I found myself reconnecting inwardly. With plenty of time for yoga and meditation, my days were filled with routine: waking up, cold showers, applying Vibhuti, light clothing, and sadhana. Even as my pregnancy began during the second wave, my body was prepared for the life growing inside me.

 

I enjoyed every aspect of my pregnancy and stayed deeply connected to myself and the child in my womb. I kept practicing yoga till the last day. One day, I found myself wondering: Will I be able to return to my practices right after giving birth? I asked my doctor, who guided me clearly. I once read that children come to awaken us and mine truly did!

 

Even while carrying twins, I never gave up my sadhana. I kept going. Then, in 2023, I received a calling from Sadhguru to attend the Samyama program - the highest level of practice offered at Isha Yoga Centre. Leaving my 22-month-old twins with my husband and family, I said yes. Samyama is not just a word; it’s beyond language, beyond imagination. For me, it brought incredible clarity. It shattered my mental and physical limitations.

 

Without sadhana, my life wouldn’t be what it is today. My relationship with myself and my husband has deepened. Most importantly, my children now have a mother who is fully present, emotionally resilient, and genuinely joyful. That is the greatest gift I can offer them.

Today, I raise my twins with more consciousness and that came through daily sadhana. You cannot pour from an empty cup; you must fill your own first. Life after Samyama is not just meaningful it’s filled with gratitude and intense focus.

 

If I had to describe my life in one word now, it would be pleasant. Nothing can stop you from making your life beautiful. Often, it’s just our own thoughts and small distractions that hold us back. Walking the path of spirituality may differ for each person, but for me, it has been pure bliss.

 

I would have never known this depth of comfort and clarity without Sadhguru and his teachings. I am forever grateful to my Guru.